its the last gasp...its time to press on and dash toward the finishing line and get it over.....

i believe i can do it...

and i believe im so gonna look for a serious, real relationship...because i wanna take the responsibility to take care of someone who i like..

again...im not gay...

prelims are in 7 day time...

about 13 more 7-day to a levels...

i want freedom...i want it too badly..

sometimes i wonder what defines perfect...

its gonna be a rant here,,,

think before you continue to read it....

i tried my best...i might have gone over board..but it doesn't mean im inconsiderate...

arghh..i have no idea what the hell im typing...

forget it..

my internet connection is as slow as my current running pace..damn

Happy 20th Birthday SRJC...a college which is one year older than me....

today was nothing but trying my best to make the best fun out of college day...reached sku in the afternoon for a serie of prize presentation..how i wish i will also be one of them up on the stage next year..that will be perfect for my student journey coz uni student is more like a working class....

i was "invited" to attend the dinner which i dragged mich along...sori mich...the programme they put up was fairly good but a big big disappointment of the food....and feeling the threat and piss when sitting beside hyper shaa and some track fellows..they were close to driving me insane!!..lol..i was so bored even to text bob lau in the beginning and he came all the way to my seat to chat...lol..

  shaa..the crazy gal.. my st pats cum srjc mate..irwin and chris. if you wonder who bob lau is..he is my all time favourite tutor cum good friend in sr...

gotta tune myself back to working mode tomorrow...sigh.. 

well i need to thank for the support given by you guys...my friends and i love you all...

something which has been effingly puzzling me...why do some of you treat me like that? because i always give in and you must take advantage of me?? it hurts when someone i used to trust so much who is now doubting whatever i say...if i were meant to be a joke to you so be it..perhaps someone is right, im too weak in confronting others...i dont mean physical battles but something else...maybe what i said was right..we better dont talk..dont bother each other so that you wont get affected by what others say and focus more on your studies...im more of a distraction anyway..i feel so bad indeed but its the best choice of all i guess...i ll stay out of your way

anyway its the last weekend to reopen of school...ensued by a straight dash toward prelims ...another 8 weeks to go and to work bloody hard to get my desired results...perhaps a switch of environment meaning the new house will refresh my studies...supposedly...

so i guess thats all for now..

any slogging week flew past..

my life is getting more and more screwed....

the only things left in my wishlist till 29th

movies

a joyous day tmr for alan s bday..

a good clubbing nite next week...i count you in andrea!!..perhaps mich and mas as well..

thx for being my listeners...cynthia..florence/..

determination..

the shoody connection is getting on my nerve...finally i can sit down and blog without going on and offline...well i blew my weekend...perhaps its typical for me..

btw happy birthday to my aunt...celebrating her 40th tomorrow...gonna burn my pocket again..lol...

well i cant recall much now...

and im looking forward to move to new house as soon as possible...this place is killing me..

time to hit the sack..

nites*

have picked up my revision recently........special thanks to all my study partners...which i think i am gonna myself a two day break from school for the celebration of jonathan s birthday tomorrow..followed by a hangover day on thruday in preparation of impactful friday for econs...

to some of my friends..i really have no idea about such term called "test date"..it is simply ridiculous to me perhaps im still a hong kee after all...its just unreasonable...and do please scrimp and save you blackliste

ps: you..kiss my ass.........

life has been so far so good since the start of june holiday...because im totally preoccupied with everything except studies, unlike my life for the past few weeks...which is the kinda life i should have instead...

anyway like what i told myself...this holiday will only last for 10 days till next monday...implication is i gotta pick up my studies as soon as next monday..ya studies again!! So i have most of the plans within this week before being lifeless again

other than that...i have to start packing up coz as you know im gonna move house soon...and all the filings and online homework....sigh...well this is life...screw a-level..

santa clause (leslie) is coming to school on monday...

im enjoying every moment for the time being

and i hope you too...

life is mundane nowadays...i simply cant live without books and notes.......well i have nothing much to blog about this week but rather i attempted some quizzzzzzzzzzzzz online not those from facebook...

Your Birthdate Predicts You're Fearless

Ever since you were born, you've always been able to assert yourself. You are confident in carving your own path. Soon enough, other people will be persuaded and follow along. You are driven and competitive to the point of being impulsive. You'll do just about anything to win. It drives you crazy when you have to stay still in life. You are too dynamic to stay stagnant. perhaps i shouldnt even get into a jc in the first place...i have almost reached a state where i feel like jumping off the building because of the level of boredom i get...shit Your Ideal Relationship is Polyamory You want to have your cake... and everyone else's. Which isn't a bad thing, if everyone else gets to eat too! You're too much of a free spirit to be tied down by a traditional relationship. You think relationships should be open and free, with few restrictions. umm maybe i need to live with some restrictions dont I?? omg it makes me sound like some kinda flirt...